Worried....

My spotting has increased to slight bleeding in the past few days with some mean cramps. Last night, a tiny, bloody clot came out (I know, TMI...but too bad). I'm so confused. Everything I read online says not to worry too much but my goodness, it's a bit alarming when you see something like that....especially when it's accompanied with constant cramping. Anyways, I finally called my doctor this morning and I have an appt this afternoon. Let's hope everything is fine and I'm just being a worrywart for nothing.

Bed Rest

I've been getting braxton hicks contractions for about 3 days now - continuously. With mild cramps that won't go away...plus lower back pains...oh and some light spotting (but i've been spotting since i first found out i was preggers). At first, I didn't think much of it...but I actually woke up in the middle of the night from the contractions so I decided to call my doctor this morning. She doesn't think it's anything too serious since I was just there for a checkup last week and the baby's heart rate was very good (165 bpm) but she recommended that I try to stay in bed for a few days. And then, if the cramping doesn't go away, to come in to check on the baby.

This pregnancy is so different from my first one..I don't know what to make of it. You'd better be a good little baby when you come out, kid. Cuz you makin' yo' mama suffer a whole lot right now.

DID YOU KNOW....

that balsamic vinegar has lead in it? And if you read the label, some of them say something like "Prop 65 - this product may contain lead, a chemical known to the State of California, to cause birth defects and other reproductive harm". WTF?

I was at Whole Foods looking for a new bottle of balsamic vinegar and saw this on several of the labels. Apparently, all of them contain lead. I got a little scared so I just ended up not buying any. =/

Baby

Conversation with Christian today as I'm lying down on the couch:

"Christian, do you want a Baby?"

"yAsh" with a big smile as he's playing on his train table.

"Do you love baby?"

"yAsh"

"Are you going to be nice to baby?"

"yAsh"

Yep...we're having a baby~! It's exciting and exhausting all at the same time. I'll go more into details in a little bit. Here's the continuation of our conversation -

"Do you want baby boy or baby girl?"

thinks about it.. and says, "beby guh-rl"

"Christian, where is baby?"

Points to my stomach and replies, "dere!"

"Can you give baby a kiss?"

Walks towards me and instead, pulls down my dress and points at my boobs and yells out, "boobies! boobies!...mommy boobies!" as he's trying to closely examine my nipple.

"Yes, love...those are mommy's boobies...now give baby a kiss"

He leans in and gives a sweet kiss on my stomach and smiles. =)


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3 more weeks and I'll be in my 2nd trimester... I don't remember the 1st trimester going by this fast the first time. Time seriously flies.

FAQs that ppl seem to ask when they find out I'm pregnant:
How do you feel? Are you excited?
Of course, it's exciting BUT I'm sooooo tired this time around, it's unbelievable. Just sitting upright is a task for me. In the mornings, I have maybe 3 hours of energy before I completely burn out for the day. Even a nap doesn't help.

Do you have morning sickness?
I did have a bad bout for about a week...I threw up some here and there, I had terrible, TERRIBLE acid reflux / heartburn, I'm suffering from both constipation & diarrhea... and mood swings are at FULL FORCE. I actually had a tinge of resentment towards this kid when I was at my peak of miserableness. I kept saying to Ben, "I don't like this pregnancy, Christian was such a good baby inside my belly - I didn't feel sick and I loooved being pregnant. I don't like this one so far."

Do you want a boy or a girl?
Even before I met Ben, I've always known I wanted 2 boys. Then, Ben said he wanted a girl so we decided we'd have 2 boys and 1 girl...in that order. Now, after raising a boy for 2 years, I'm kinda wanting a girl - to balance out all the testosterone in the family. BUT, I'm 99.5% sure that we're having a boy. I can just feel it - he's a boy. I see my future and I can't picture a girl - I picture 2 boys. I think I already have a boy name picked out. I did have a girl name picked out years ago, but I don't know that I love it anymore. But I'm not even going to look into girl names because I just know, this little miracle inside of me is a boy.

How far along are you?
I'm about 10 weeks. Baby is about 1 1/2 inches long. He's even already moving his little arm buds and legs. Christian went with me to the ultrasound and he saw everything. He insisted that he saw Baby's teeth and they were big. It's the most awesome feeling to experience this process with your child. Ben couldn't come with us because he couldn't skip out of work. So, I decided to record it on my little camera so he could watch the ultrasound on the computer. Unfortunately, dumbass me (i blame it on the pregnancy ... lack of oxygen to your brain = dumbass maneuvers) didn't push the button all the way to record and was holding a camera in front of the ultrasound screen for no reason at all. *sigh* At least Christian got to see it... =)

Pictures

Yeah, I know...my ass has been laaaazzyyyy about updating this blog. A couple of months ago, we switched Christian to a big boy bed...but after a few days, we couldn't handle it anymore because he kept getting up out of bed and coming out of his room - like every 3 minutes. It drove us insane. And then he'd wake up at the crack of dawn, come out of his room and into ours, climb up on our bed and start bugging us. So...we put him back into his crib. And things were back to normal. Until about a week or so ago. He can now climb out of his crib in 3 seconds flat. It's driving us insane. It used to be, when 8pm rolled around, we'd just plop him in his crib and close the door and we'd have the rest of the evening to take care of things around the house and just relax. Now, we're lucky if we get him to sleep by 9:30. Ugh.

Anyways, enough venting. Here's some pics of my TWO year old! OMG, he's TWO!~

We went to Disneyland for his birthday and he had the time of his life... He's still talking about driving the car, riding the Nemo submarine, seeing sharks and hanging out with "emo" and "nonah" aka Auntie Cindy and his BFF, Noah. Unfortunately, we weren't able to get many good photos because he was so distracted with his environment, he didn't want to take any pics.

Driving the car ride~~


Playing in the playground at Toon Town~


Dinner afterwards at Chosun Galbee~~



We went to Palm Springs with Grandma Shirl and Grandpa Stu this past weekend. Christian had a blast swimming and relaxing.




Doesn't he look like such a big boy here?!



An afternoon with Mommy at the new Americana in Glendale...

Trying to touch the water~~


Eating lunch with mommy at Cheesecake...



Lately, Christian and I have been going out to lunch alone together. Surprisingly, he's very good. He actually stays in his seat, eats his food, talks to me, laughs and we have a really good time...without the DVD player! I guess he enjoys the one-on-one time as much as I do because when there's other ppl that are eating with us, he won't stay still for more than 5 minutes.

Okay, that's all folks... until next time...who knows when that may be... =P

still sick...

Can you believe I'm STILL sick? Well, I was better for like 3 days and then I got sick AGAIN. Ben's sick and Christian's getting sick too. I feel like we've been sick all of winter. I shall post again as soon as I feel better... until then, just wanted to let everyone I'm alive...barely.

"Mammy, Mammy"

There are little moments in my hectic life where I get overwhelmed with pure joy from the fact that I am the mother to my baby boy. These are moments that I wish I could just capture and put in a little box so that I can open them up later to relive that moment. He's growing up so fast. I can't believe he's turning 2 soon. His 2nd year went by faster than his 1st year. Everyday he does or says something so cute, I just want to bite him!

This morning, Ben woke up early to take care of Christian while I slept in (we've all caught the nasty cold that's been going around). Several times throughout the morning, Christian kept coming into my bedroom to try and wake me up but Ben would run up and grab him and whisper that "mommy is sick, she needs to sleep" and take him out of the room.

At one point, Ben was doing something in the kitchen so Christian made his escape and came into my room once again. He opened the door, walked in and began mumbling "mammy, mammy" (his version of "mommy"), climbed up my bed, crawled over to my face and began digging his fingers into my eyes to try and open my eyelids. I was so tired I just kept closing them shut. But, in my mind, I was dying because I thought it was so hilarious. I think I may have involuntarily smirked a little too.

After a few failed attempts of getting my eyes to open, he decided to lean in and give me a sweet kiss and then climbed off the bed, walked out of the room and even shut the door behind him.

When I finally woke up, I was greeted with a large glass of freshly squeezed orange juice from my hubby (that's what Ben was working on in the kitchen when Christian came into my room).

Sometimes, being sick isn't so bad... =)